
We went to Costco this last Friday and I am standing with Finn and the cart between the check out and the food area trying to keep my eye on Sully while Brandi orders food. Just then I catch some crusty old lady standing in front of my basket giving me the stink eye. I'm not in a great mood and I think to my self, whatever, just ignore her. About a minute goes by and she is still giving me the stink eye as I keep my eyes trained on Sulivan because that kid can disappear in a crowd like Houdini. Ignore her, I think again. Finally she goes by huffing and sighing as loud as she can and says something about me being in the middle of the way. That's when I did some thing I never do, I said something.
I turned looked her in the eye and said each syllable, "Whatever, lady."
Then she stops and looks at me and sighs loudly again, and starts to protest, "Whatever? You are in the..." I cut her off this time.
"Keep walking crusty." I say.
She tries again. "Wha..."
"Yeah...you heard me, whatever, that's right. KEEP walkin'." I actually pointed this time.
It was over after that. She mumbled and went on her way.
I feel somehow more free, more loose now. For a long time I've gotten to say what I want in my art but I never say anything in person. I don't like personal confrontation. Was this crusty old bat help me have a break through? Did this one seemingly inconsequental moment change me forever? Was she the final ounce of water that broke a leaky dam? I must say, I'm fed up, filled up I guess and my normal passive aggressive reflexes are giving way to the spillway. The BS tank is full and the emergency release valve is primed. There is no telling what could happen now. Stay tuned.